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"Depression my sidebitch, anxiety my main bitch"

"Depression my sidebitch, anxiety my main bitch"

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Strong enough to be me: Bipolar disorder

Sometimes its hard to wake up and do something. Sometimes I have so much power that I can do anything. I feel like a superman who has powers. I used to cry myself to sleep everyday. I wanted to be normal. But then I realised I have bipolar disorder. I am NOT bipolar disorder! I can do everything I want. I can live beautiful life without meds. Because I am strong enough to be me.
It was always so important to me what their opinion is. The most hurts me a fact that every person I like runs away, because behinde my smiley face isn't always happiness. Sometimes I feel broke and I need someone to hold me and say " It gonna be okey"
Is it too much to show that you care? Everything you say matters. Telling a depressed person she is negative hurts a lot. They try their best to be happy, to be normal.
It's not easy to fight with your demons everyday.
Sometimes I just can't handle this pain, but it dosen't mean that I am negative. I can feel happiness, I know happiness.
It's my fight and I will fight til I can't stand.



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